in the meantime, i've gotten laid off again and found an even better job- i can say i'm a "software engineer" now- "onward and upward", as a good friend of mine likes to say.
i've moved out of san jose, which kinda turned into a shithole and the parts that didn't had cultural values that i hated. i live in a really nice and peaceful place, on a peninsula in the middle of the san francisco bay now.
my relationship with theresa persists, and after review, makes me feel unhappy more than it makes me happy- but i'm still playing music, and that makes me happy sometimes.
but the reason i came here to post is to say i miss my father. he was a fucking asshole, but that taught me to expect people to be assholes, and most of them are are, so i guess i owe him thanks for the lesson, and i miss him.