June 2nd, 2002


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i'm here.

i'm sober.

didn't get to bring the mr2 with me, as i failed to think of calling ahead to n7th, and someone who wasn't present had his car parked in front of it. dunno if/when i'll be able to make another trip for it. frustrating, but... whatever. not worth further thought. (my bleepity-bleep of an ex-gf is the one who wanted the damned car; maybe she'll trade that monitor of mine she *still* has for it.)

i just got back from a local pool hall, which is apparently one of the few available things to do on any night, let alone a sunday. i played one game and scratched the 8 into a side pocket after building a healthy lead. whee.

the new living space is... spacious, and i've set up my game-box/mp3-server and the GhettoTek sound system, which i configured differently on a whim. the single-12 cabinets now each have their own 125w amp, and the dual-10 box is being run from the sony. since the system is no longer contained in a 90sf room, i'm not sure if it's better or worse; but it sounds good this way, and i'm glad to have it set up again.

after unloading, i couldn't be bothered to do anything other than that and drag my futon mattress into a convenient spot so i have somewhere to pass out.

i have no idea where i'm going to be by the time i leave this place, which is disquieting, because "if you don't know where you're going you won't get there", right?

i don't think a continued career in IT/MIS is in my future. i've burnt out on it, and the subject simply doesn't interest me any longer. at least, that's how it feels right now; but apparently there's more of a demand than i thought for this kind of work locally. (i am the one-eyed man. big fish, little pond. isn't this what i wanted?)

i realize that work environment makes a bigger difference for me than what i'm actually doing; but i don't have high hopes, as supporting a bunch of users in a rural area sounds like about as much fun as supporting a bunch of ladies who could remember WWII was; and truth be told, i could work my ass off out here and barely take home more than EDD is willing to hand me for the next 4 months.

to sum it up, where i am doesn't feel right at all, and until it does i imagine i'll have difficulty plotting a path that has this as a waypoint.

dad's advising me to file a claim w/ the labor board against mercanti for the past 1yr+ worth of pay that i'm owed. my initial reaction to this is that it'll create a lot of stress for kevin (the guy running mercanti), or even be the last nail in the coffin for the company; as apparently not all of his "cost-cutting" measures were on the up-and-up.
he says i need to put myself first more often.

i can't check email until i get a network drop run to my room, so if you're waiting for a response, please hang tight, i'll get to it soon.