too many cycles taken up by the current situation.
i'm unable to think of anything else.
the pendulum will either swing one way or the other
and i'm not sure which is better or worse
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so which fucking ape is on you today
that's what my head wakes up and says
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if i accept failure, and run to sanctuary
will i become languid and lose sight, or just go stir-crazy again?
if i grab, and swing across the chasm
will it hold, and is there anything to land on?
will i ever be able to stop worrying about where i'm at
and give some consideration to where i want to be?
